Wednesday, May 01, 2002

 

5/1/02

1st of the month....

Me and everything around me, is unstable like Chernobyl
Ready to go at any moment, jumpin like a pogo stick
Life never lived up to my expectations, so I accept the patience
Expect the worse but now I'm pacin, back and forth
Inside I'm melting like water on wicked witches
A monster truck done came and ran over my picket fences
I had the best of life in my clinches but monkey wrenches was thrown
Like chairs kings sit on, my prayers seem to long
I fall asleep before the endin, don't even get to say Amen
I hope He understand I be on bended knees
At times, I think I'm crazy, so I say forget it
Or maybe it's the devil infiltrating and like Riddick...Bowe
I've been fighting this since them fetus days
I count from one to twenty, when I'm through, repeat the phrase
It's just a phase, it's gon all pass, but that gets old too
I'm weakening like a deacon doin dirt
What am I supposed to do?

I wanna fake my own death just to see how many people I consider my true friends would
come and pay their respects.

Today wasn't exactly the best day ever, though I carried a smiles throughout it.
At lunch, I contemplated again as I laid back on my backpack. I almost fell asleep. =)
Oh well, it's all good.

Going back to school tommorow and 'learning' and 'prepping' for tests that I'll have to take in order to stay in it.
Fun, yeah?

Tommorow's thursday, making the day after tommorow friday....

Love to live, live to love people.
Stay 'gold'.
"I remember, back in the day."
-Ryan

Ryan posted this at 5:09 PM.