Thursday, February 13, 2003

 

2/13/03

Know what is especially gooberriffic when you're sick? The fact that you have 1,000 thoughts per second, yet, you cannot voice them.
I'll have the perfect witty comeback or the most interesting comment or the sweetest thought, but I don't have the willpower to say them.
Even if I'm chatting online. My head is too stuffed to type it out.
Not only that, but my judgement is all blurred, too. Blah, blah, blah!
And the rain doesn't help at all. On wednesday, I had to partially walk home in the rain (i had to ride the bus) and the rain was pouring like no other.
A few drops of rain creeped in the corner crevices of my eyes and fell down my cheek. I guess nature could tell I was down and decided to cry for me. Oh, and I tripped and fell a few yards down my hill. That was fun.

As for the dime I was spitting. I can tell I've permeated through her, but affection only visits for so long. We've only just met and we both now feel that being friends would be a better route.

You ever get the feeling you mesh so well with a person? You've thought about it a few times, but never really took notice? And when you realized it, you became nervous or more quiet around that person? But then the next day, you have the whole world to tell that person? Having these mixed emotions on and off for a long, long time. How long? A week? A month? A year? It doesn't matter. It's these prickly stabs from Cupid that remind you how fine the line between great friendship and lasting affection is.

I know plenty of people who long to go on dates....to have an affectionate lover. Though it is a great thing, it isn't all that its cracked up to be. Remember, everything is double sided and you can have as much joy in the relationship as you can have pain. But that's only if you let it be.
Then again, we're only in highschool. No need to get beyond serious. Then again, some of us have felt these pangs of love since middle school. Hell, late elementary.
Confuzzled? Yes I am. It's that drowsy, sickly talk again, chil'ren. Pay no attention.

And now, quotes from AIM!
G e n i u S RyRy: so, you're going out to a restaurant for valentine's day?
[name witheld]: yupperz....a romantic dinner with my family lol
G e n i u S RyRy: and you do this every valentines?
[name witheld]: mmmhmm
[name witheld]: it's depressing though, sitting in the restaurant watching all the happy couples
G e n i u S RyRy: haha, well i'm sure you'll give them all lung cancer
[name witheld]: lol...how so?
G e n i u S RyRy: cause wherever you sit is the 'smoking' section ;-)

I'm out.
-Ryan

Ryan posted this at 11:10 PM.