Sunday, December 28, 2003

 

12/28/03

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"Bro, its your turn."

They all looked at him, awaiting a response. He returned their gazes with one of bashfulness. And then, those words of encouragement spouted from her lips.

"Yeah, and you better do something good. I heard you sing hella good!"

"Haha, where'd you hear that from?" he questioned as he reluctantly walked up on 'stage'. He grabbed the mic, controller in hand. He looked on as everyone crowded around him, awaiting his selection.

He stood there for a while, contemplating. He looked at the smiling duo in the middle and the perfect song crossed his mind. "He's gonna owe me for this one," he thought to himself as he recalled the song his friend had requested on the radio the night she was listening.

"Yeah...this one's for the happy couple up front, haha. Do you remember this joint, bro?" He scrolled down, song was selected and the melody began. And then his euphonius voice took flight.

"It came over me in a rush.
When I realized that I love you so much,
that sometimes I cry,
but I cant tell you why...
Why I feel what I feel inside."

He looked around, letting the beat ride on, awaiting the next verse, a plethora of surprised expressions on their faces. Except for the two up front.

The two were looking jubilantly into one another's eyes, smiling joyously, as if they were in a state of nirvana. His friend gave him a nod and smile, his 'thank you'.

Taking a glance at the desire in their eyes, he closed his eyes as he began the next verse.

"How I try, to express,
What's been troublin' my mind.
But still, I can't find the words.
but I know that something's got a hold of me."

The image of her suddenly appeared before him as if he had X-ray vision only for the girl. He remembered how he had been right next to him when he called the station to play the song. He was nervous, intimidated to make the call. It reminded the singer of how he felt when he first met here, nervous and intimidated.

As he sailed through the chorus once again, images and scenarios filled his head. As time went on, he forget that she was the epitome of everything positive. The two grew close and he was glad to know that he had a benevolent friend like her.

"Baby someday, I'll find a way to say,
Just what you mean to me.
But if that day never comes along,
and you dont hear this song,
I guess you'll never know."

He was beginning to lose himself within the song. Oh, she heard the song. She heard it crystal clear. However, she didn't realize that the request was from two gentlemen. Then again, he hadn't either.

He looked around with consternation and insecurity. What was flowing through his head? He hoped it wasn't what he thought it was.

It was then that he let go. Another chorus went by and he entered the breakdown, just as it was titled, emotions fluttering through his mind.

"And when I say inside, I mean deep.
You fill my soul,
and then something I cant explain,
takes over me,

'Cause it came over me in a rush.
When I realized that I love you so much,
that sometimes I cry,
but I cant tell you why...
Why I feel what I feel inside."

He poured his heart into the last revisions of the chorus, ending with exasperated breath. It had indeed came over him in a rush, as he realized that he loved her so much. The dam had finally broken as the pressure from his witheld feelings became too much.

He glanced around the room. The face of one person was the same as the next, except for hers. She had a subtle, small smile on her face as if she had known all along and was just waiting for the reciprocating feelings to become concrete.

He was winded and all he could mutter was a small, "Thank you," as he left the house.

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Docking out...
-Ryan : a hopeless romantic

Ryan posted this at 2:24 AM.

Friday, December 19, 2003

 

12/19/03

Things you should know by now:
-I'm the best part of waking up.
-I occasionally chase skirts. Flirting don't hurt.
-I've been described as eclectic and emollient.
-I am one sex-ay piece of man.
-I've suffered from basorexia since 8th grade.
-My name spelled backwards sounds like a horrible hair-removal product.
-I'll willingly listen to anything BUT country. Even Mr. Sterling (oh!)
-I've had the and still retain the following nicknames (among others): Taurus, Smooth Operator, Song Santa
-Kevin Du has officially lost his title of "Stealth Ninja" because I'm dubbing it upon Kristina, the Stealth Ninja.
-I once found a four-leaf clover.
-Darren says,"Ryan is a random-cool cAtt"
-Ryan agrees.
-By "Ryan" I mean myself....its a pronoun.
-When I move, you move.
-Deja Vu hits me more than it should.
-Simon says I'm a, and I quote, "pretty darn good rapper."
-Whales are cool, but not as cool as the monkeys.
-All questions must be written in writing.
-I'm sporadic, and can't do things routinely unless I have to.
-My bangs and I have been together since 3rd grade.
-I have a weak spot for helping out strangers.
-I bid on the eBay item "I'll allow you to punch P. Diddy in the face and get away with it."
-In an asian family, you're either into gambling or totally against it.
-My first poem ever written was to a girl in 2nd grade. She turned me down.
-I like to write, even though I may not be good at it.
-I'm the only reason you come to any of your AP classes.
-The only reason that I stay is so I can save the day.
-I'm not the best, but I'm in the top two.
-I've known Cameron, Michael and Phan since kindergarden.
-I don't practice Santeria.
-I love Cereals.
-Flowers too.
-I don't have to put much effort into a lot and I probably won't.
-Emily's a gangstb.
-I once got into a fight with Ego. I won.
-I will win in any fight.
-I'm optimistic.
-I'm like but not loved.
-I wouldn't mind being in Battle Royale.
-I know people, and they can get things done.
-I'll try anything twice as long as it doesn't kill me the first time.
-I drink Dr. Pepper.
-I'm beyond demure.
-You don't know my middle name and you probably never will.
-To me, its all about perspective.
-The New Ravi is going to get straight A's.
-I can predict the future.
-You might not have met me yet, but I've sure met you.
-I shot the sheriff, but I did not shoot the deputy, whoa-whoaaa.
-I was a member of the APoc Crew and yes, I won them and myself a lot of money.
-I analyze. A lot. Too much, perhaps. Maybe almost compulsively. Then again, my mind also easily jumps.
-I drive a flying car.
-I can bust the chop.
-I work well under pressure.
-I have a history of stealing....hearts.
-I'm extremely modest.
-I'm designated wingman.
-I drink cream soda.
-I don't insult people. In fact, when I get mad at someone, I start throwing compliments at them.
-I have friends of every caliber.
-I've known girls of every caliber.
-I'm awesome without being awesome.
-My academic career was copacetic until I hit highschool.
-I can recite the entire scripts of 10 Things I Hate About You, What Women Want, Bring It On, Can't Hardly Wait and The Chipmunk's Adventure by myself.
-I invented the internet.
-Procrastination is my mistress.
-My other mistress is erudition.
-I will be nice to your younger siblings.
-I will be nice to your older siblings.
-I will be nice to your parents.
-I will be nice to everyone.
-I'm foolishly selfless.
-Only you can prevent forest fires.
-In the past, I've developed affectionate feelings for a girl juss for inspiration.
-I'm not more than you need, juss more than you're used to.
-I dig K-Pop, J-Pop and P-Pop (?) even though I only have a genereal idea of what they're singing about.
-I have more property than Monopoly.
-I might know something and I might not tell you.
-I'm not afraid to commit, juss afraid to admit.
-I'm a Poetic Hustler.
-I coined the phrases, "Love to live, live to love." and "Don't hesitate to procrastinate."
-I sway to the rhythm, speak with the jive, bust out the vocal notes and keep things alive.

I'll finish my li'l story, "Change" next entry, yeah?

Now please, a moment of silence for the recently deceased Keiko, better known as Free Willy.

...

While we're at it, give me your wallet too.

Thank you.

Docking out...
-Ryan : legal in all 50 states (even Cuba!)

Ryan posted this at 8:50 PM.