Thursday, March 29, 2007

 

3.29.07

Do you ever have anything positive to say?

I mean, really. Tell me something good in your life right now that isn't about or somehow related to your ego.

It could be so much worse, and all you ever seem to allude to is yourself.

And you-- you have to learn how to trust other people.

Maybe not fully, 'cause there's always that offchance-- but you gotta realize that others are certainly just as capable.

Every now and then you got to give a little to get a lot. I'm just saying.

As for you, you have to learn how to let things go. It's not worth it to be holding grudges and harboring contempt for others.

Your bitterness exudes and permeates your pores and affects all those around you. It's easily evident in your speech and your actions.

It happened. You best learn from it and move on, lest you want to stay in the state that you're currently in. At this moment, no one is holding you back except for yourself.

Your motivation should stem from yourself and not because of others. I'm just saying.

There are so many things happening right now that I don't even know where to begin.

It's almost as if everyone is going through a period of sadness or anger for whatever reason...

and you know what? It affects me.

Every little detail-- it affects me.

They affect me in ways that you don't even know.

It never gets any easier and I don't know how I'm able to keep my composure when so many emotions and thoughts violently stir within me.

I still find ways to jest and smile.

But this past month, and now with this week-- it's just not fair.

It seems like everything's hit an all-time low and for once, I can't say a thing.

Not because I'm not capable, or I'm not able to comment, or I don't have the right piece of advice but simply because I am tired.

I am mentally exhausted from having to deal with so much, ranging from the petty to the downright heartbreaking.

And when I say deal with, I'm not talking about what most people do-- just hearing about it and just letting it bounce and vibe for just a couple of minutes.

I talking about actually taking it in, absorbing it-- thinking of ways to improve the situations and taking the actual time to talk to these people.

I haven't been to one of these in a while. The last time I had gone...

I hadn't bawled like that since I was a child.

It never gets any easier and you never quite know what to say. There's not much you can say at that point, really.

All you can do is offer a shoulder and an ear and let time do its thing.

In all regards, it's all good.

Time will do its thing.

With its passing, you'll realize again all the intricacies of joy that exist within the world and the reasons to face the world with a smile.

There's are so many bad things that happen daily-- you have to celebrate every precious moment of natural good that you are surrounded in.

It's disheartening that we all take so many things for granted and it takes such momentous events like this to make us re-evaluate everything, including the way we live our lives and our existence.

Don't let it go.

Docking out...
-Ryan : iceboxed

Ryan posted this at 2:49 AM.