Friday, May 24, 2002

 

5/24/02

Well then.
Long time since I've written.
Where have I been? Well, I"ve been really busy lately. Finals and all.
We've been given a whole grip of homework and whatnot.
Fun, fun, fun.
Well, 3-day Memorial Weekend coming up.
Fun, fun, fun.

I don't know why, but I was excessively tired during and right after lunch.
Thankfully, I sat next to some dope, active people during 5th period english and the movie brought me to tune.
Though, Mr. Gallegos was going all wild. I think he gave me a "check-minus" today. =)
Oh well.

I got perfect attendance and a GPA of 4.33....how sad am I?
I could have gotten a 4.5, but I didn't try...no, not hard enough.....rather, at all.
It was pretty sad when everyone had booed Ryan Axford.
I'm glad I didn't get booed....then again, I see no reason why I would. Sorry if I sound like a jackass, but it's true.
I'm not sure how many cheers i got but when I looked in the crowd to get my award, people were looking at me smiling. Throwing signs and yelling. It was awesome.

Though, the ceremony was kind of ghetto. All the awards were based on GPA alone except for the attendance and athletic awards.
The people who got students of the year, though they are some tight people that I know, in my opinion, didn't deserve those awards.
Again, it was kind of based on GPA despite them claiming it was based on all-aroundness. If you're going to award freshman student of the year, award to someone who has the passion for school. Someone more invovled and eager.
There should have been other awards as well. What awards you say? Hell, I don't know, but there weren't enough. Er....ok, scratch that. There was beyond enough awards.
But still, it was the same people being recycled over and over again.
Congrats to Akash and Ravi but anyone could have taken geometry and alg. 2 over the summer and the 1 year home-study courses.
If anyone had deserved to get that math student of the year award, it should've have been to Tammy. Hell, she didn't even take math this year. That right there is heroic in itself. She only has to take calculus left. Though, it was pretty funny hearing what people had to say when the 2 had gone up there together and hugged one another for a pose. But still, 2/3 of our student population are a bunch of jackasses. The ironic thing is, I know all of them. Does that make me a jackass as well for befriending them?
Yes, I found some of the dumbass things people did funny. Sorry.
And the slideshow was gay.
Thank you.
-Ryan

Ryan posted this at 6:34 PM.

Friday, May 10, 2002

 

5/10/02 - Cont.

These seem to describe me (in my opinion).
Others have told me similar things in the past.
What do you think?
Click on the links to take the pointless quizzes yourself.

	I am strong. Almost invincibly so. To attack me physically is foolish. I am not however without my soft spots. I am quiet by nature, but am in command of great force. All I ask is a little peace, and a little solidarity. Deny me my space, and I just might get angry. You wouldn't like me when I'm angry. What's your superpower?

-Ryan

Ryan posted this at 9:14 PM.

 

5/10/02

Being excessively happy is fun.
-Ryan

Ryan posted this at 7:30 PM.

Monday, May 06, 2002

 

5/6/02 - Cont.

I constantly pull acts of stupidity on purpose to make myself feel level with the rest of the cats I usually chill with.
People tell me that I'm smarter than the average bear and I just shrug.
Why? Because, how am I supposed to respond to that?
I don't feel smart. My friends always tell me they're struggling to get good grades.
Me? I hardly do shit at all. The most work I've ever done in school was on the homework.
Classwork? I usually breeze through that shit.
Don't ask me how to get good grades. My friends put it best..."it just flows for Ryan..."
Just like everything else, it flows.
My advice? Just flow with it. Do your work.
I hate grades. They're pretty much just marks that show how much effort you're putting into your work.
I hardly put effort in. I just put in enough.
Fuck school. I don't see why I should work so hard to work the rest of my life.
Your welcome.
I'll be glad to see you all tommorow.

Why was I bitter today? The above is part of it. But there's more than one gear in the machine.
Or something.

Just flow with it.
-Ryan

Ryan posted this at 9:49 PM.

 

5/6/02

School sucks. Life doesn't.
Today was horrible. Past days haven't.
Optimistic, eh?

Usually, when I'm troubled, I flow with it and churn it into kindness, helpfulness and compliment...ness...er...yeah.
But today, I don't know. My mask crumbled and by the end of lunch I was a wreck.
But don't trip people. It's all good. Minor set back. This bro going to be back tommorow good as new.
Smiling. Laughing. Enjoying.
But you don't need to know why I was down today. But thanks for asking. Good to know people do notice and care...somewhat. Or something.

Nothing in this world is worth the stress my friends.
Nothing. Nothing at all, chil'en.

Wish I could take my own advice seriously.
Try to keep yourself happy. I am.
It'll save you a lot of shit. It has me.
Be optimistic. Be free.

Time to dream away my troubles.
-Ryan

Ryan posted this at 3:46 PM.

Saturday, May 04, 2002

 

5/3-.....er....5/4/02

Party turned into kickback.
Ghetto...
But, my peeps had a good time...I think. Or was that juss the alchohol? Hmm-sha...
Yeah, I was doing the regular regulating....er...kinda.
To be honest, I don't really like myself when I'm drunk.
You can guess that when I'm older I'll be taking my drinking seriously if any.

I find that I've falling in 'like' with 2 femme fatales now....ah, the joys of adolesecence.
Unfortunately, yet fortunately, both the broads are headed into the friendship side of my boat.

Letting it ride....letting it ride. As long as everyone is content and chill, I'm happy.
I get mah-bu-hay jumped, but if my friend was untouched, I'll be happy.
I don't know. I'm just like that. I forgot that word....um.....we just reviewed it in english...

Oh well, I'm out. My peeps be sleeping and my other peeps are IMing and calling me.
G*night everyone. Have an awesome day tommorow....er...today?

"Seminal fluid?"

-Ryan

Ryan posted this at 2:42 AM.

Wednesday, May 01, 2002

 

5/1/02

1st of the month....

Me and everything around me, is unstable like Chernobyl
Ready to go at any moment, jumpin like a pogo stick
Life never lived up to my expectations, so I accept the patience
Expect the worse but now I'm pacin, back and forth
Inside I'm melting like water on wicked witches
A monster truck done came and ran over my picket fences
I had the best of life in my clinches but monkey wrenches was thrown
Like chairs kings sit on, my prayers seem to long
I fall asleep before the endin, don't even get to say Amen
I hope He understand I be on bended knees
At times, I think I'm crazy, so I say forget it
Or maybe it's the devil infiltrating and like Riddick...Bowe
I've been fighting this since them fetus days
I count from one to twenty, when I'm through, repeat the phrase
It's just a phase, it's gon all pass, but that gets old too
I'm weakening like a deacon doin dirt
What am I supposed to do?

I wanna fake my own death just to see how many people I consider my true friends would
come and pay their respects.

Today wasn't exactly the best day ever, though I carried a smiles throughout it.
At lunch, I contemplated again as I laid back on my backpack. I almost fell asleep. =)
Oh well, it's all good.

Going back to school tommorow and 'learning' and 'prepping' for tests that I'll have to take in order to stay in it.
Fun, yeah?

Tommorow's thursday, making the day after tommorow friday....

Love to live, live to love people.
Stay 'gold'.
"I remember, back in the day."
-Ryan

Ryan posted this at 5:09 PM.