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Thursday, May 29, 20035/29/03
Wooooo.....finals. Fun, yeah?
I've actually attempted to study. Did it work out? Define work out. If you mean it lasted the better half of an hour, then yes, it worked out.
OoOoWeE! The english speech final. That was grooving. Everyone in my 2nd period HP English class with Shipp, I'd like to congratulate all of you.
You all did awesomely (is that even a work? Oh well, I conjugate to my liking, sucka!). How did mine go? Not at smooth as I had hope.
See, I can always go in front of a big crowd and bust out. Why? Because I know I can and I don't have anything pressuring me.
Today, I had something pressuring me and that thing was time. Despite the 3-minute time limit, everyone had gone above and beyond with FIVE minutes. This, I didn't mind at all......at first. See, the last minutes of the period were closing in and everyone in the class except Jason, Eddie and I had gone.
"Ryan, want to do yours? I know yours will be short but entertaining as always."
"Sure, why not. Lets bust this."
I was the only one who HAD to do the whole thing in THREEE minutes! That's THREE E's! You see the emphasis?! Its there! Take another look!
Granted, I had this whole entrance and introduction to do but I could not because of the time. So, I rush up to the podium and begin my speech. Eloquently spoken and informative, though hastily rushed and abridged. And then it happened.....time to bust out the poem.
Time? I only had about a minute. It was then that the words spouted like no other. Instead of reading the thing, I was practically rapping it.
It was awesome. I guess busting out flows helps academically after all.
Beeeee-yooo-ti-full!
Drew-tastic chemistry final manana. Wookie wookie wa....
Michael and Phan are set on making a bow with arrows. So set in fact that we cut down two branches off a tree in my backyard and spent the better half of the afternoon constructing the basis of 2. Oh, and I carved out one perfect, aerodynamic arrow, thank you.
Hey! We were bored. That and the fact that the two are still obsessed with maiming a rabbit in David's front yes. Yes you, David. Yes, you.
Friiiiiends! How many of us have them?! Friiiiiends! Somebody that you can depend on?! Friiiiiends!
Word.
Why is it that this year....I don't feel as bad that the year is ending? I mean, I hardly knew that these last few days were coming up. Last year, it was a whole different case. I was beyond aware of the burgeoning of the summer and I was already missing my fellow students and teachers. Weird...
My friend told me that sometimes she feels scared and doesn't say 'Hi!' to me at school. Wha ha, now?! Why?! What for?! I'm sorry if i make you feel that way, but people, don't be afraid to juss be like, "Yo, Ryan! How's life, you sexay, sexay beast?!"
Seriously, even if I'm trilling with one of my cliques, don't let that stop you from being the friendly, nice person you are.
Docking out...
-Ryan : as filipino as detecting the right amount of water when making rice with juss your pinky
Ryan posted this at 9:33 PM.5/24/03
Sunday, May 25, 2003
Big, big, BIG dilemma...
Special K, Honey Bunches of Oats, Honey Nut Cheerios or Lucky Charms?
I've had nothing but cereal on my mind these past few days.
I'm still trying for a fine piece of mind.
Its lonely when you're sleeping, I know. Its lonely for me too. Juss know that when I'm sleeping....that I'm dreaming of you.
When will I be the one somebody's dreaming of?
Docking out...
-Ryan : as filipino as the Yo-Yo
Ryan posted this at 12:37 AM.5/22/03
Thursday, May 22, 2003
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"Ryan, why don't you juss...y'know....draw an exact portrait of her and then give it to her? I'm sure she'd be all over you, bro."
"You know how hard it is to draw perfection?"
"Bro, you're a playa and you don't even know it."
"Oh yeah.... I'm anything but a playa. I don't even like the concept of a playa. Do you have so much pride that you can't admit to liking a lady? Trust me, its a lot more enjoyable when you actually care for the girl."
"Admitting to liking a girl? Dude, you have the biggest problem with that out of all of us." "Word."
"You wanna know the truth? I've learned that for me, admitting to a girl that I like I her juss doesn't work out. Whenever I've let it slipped, it juss killed it. It ended everything we had together beforehand. I prefer good conversation and then one moment when we're alone and the mood is right, lean in."
"Hold up. Alone? Right mood? Lean in? You sound like a fricking chick flick, homie. And with who have you done all this with?!"
"Look, I'm not one to kiss and tell. And even if I did tell you, I don't think you'd know any of them.""
"Mmmmhmmm.....looks someone has too much pride to admit to liking a girl." "Word."
"There's a difference of admitting affection and being a raconteur of affection."
"Racka-wha? That means like um...storytelling, right?" "Word." "Bro, juss tell us a story. We need some entertainment right now!"
"Hey, Ruuuuuuuuuu-ben won!"
"Word." "Wait....who?!"
An example of the deep, deep, deep conversations of the 3 Amigos.
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I was confirmed yesterday. It was fun. But what I want to know is, how come the parents grubbed out on all our grub while we were taking pictures?! What in the loveable hell?!
I have to go to this important formal celebration tommorow evening. I wasn't even made aware of it until this morning. I have to serenade a girl, hand her a rose and waltz for about 15 minutes. After that, I can mingle, mingle, mingle like Kris Kringle, Kringle, Kringle. Within my head will be a jingle, jingle, jingle. If I'm lucky, I'll find a girl that gives me a mental tingle, tingle, tingle.
Yay, I"m bored! OoOoWeE!
Docking out...
-Ryan : as filipino as non-punctuality
Ryan posted this at 11:04 PM.5/18/03
Sunday, May 18, 2003
"Whoa, whoa. I know you. You dem cats from the crew called APoc, right?"
-Truly. Haha, what can I say, bros, we're on the rise. It was fun burning that cat and his crew, eh?
Dammit, we're poppers, not princes! Haha.
Tarantism keeps me happy.
I'm really dissapointed in you guys. I can't believe you think that I would say something like that. I didn't tell that guy to "shut the hell up!"
I told him to "Please, shut the hell up!" Come on, now!
Maybe its juss me but dayum....girls are beautiful.
There's no better feeling then having someone within your arms that you truly care about.
Ah...I need a girlfriend.
Yeah, I'm down with love. I'm also down with the Cookie Monster. What's that tell you?
What a great concept! Take the awesome sport of surfing and pair it with girls that surf!
Surf Girls is brilliant! Yay for Kula and Vivian!
RUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU-BEN, sucka!
"I'm never gonna dance again....guilty feet have got no rhythm...."
"Should we take a chance and dance the last dance?"
Docking out...
-Ryan : as filipino as lechon
Ryan posted this at 3:01 PM.5/17/03
Saturday, May 17, 2003
I've done the most Z catching this week then I've done this whole year. I don't know why. I think its because I've had an easier time falling asleep with this new method or whatnot.
New method? Um...yeah...its called thinking about certain stuff. It works.
Academically...the past few days haven't exactly been the best but socially, its all good. I've tied up loose ends I've head throughout the year and I'm hanging out with a lot of old friends. I've met a lot of new cats the past few days, so i'm trilling with a smile during break and lunch.
Yeah, we had to write poems for english. I wrote one. I read it to the class. The whole class laughed. They loved it. Ms. Shipp loved it too. Ms. Shipp swiped it from me. Ms. Shipp submitted it for publication. Ryan is in a mental shamble. Confuzzling, yeah?
I don't know why but all the girls I know are suffering from some sort of drama. I'd love to help out in some way, but I can't.
I'm suffering from a lil drama myself...but its like...a personal kind or whatnot? If anyone knows me, I'm constantly bored. Usually, I can keep myself entertained in my thoughts about everything that's going and I smile. People are always asking why I'm smiling....its because I know something you don't.
But lately, I've felt like nothing but an ass.
Know what sucks about being me? Kristina and Jasmine say that I'm a choosy lover, but to be honest...I think I juss fall too easily. Though, there are those few, definite potentials, I find myself having something for multiple girls at a time. You know, I've been a chaster all my life, maybe its time I've lounged out and let it trill.
I'm also more intelligent than most of my friends. On top of that, I'm a nice guy. So whenever I feel like verbally maiming someone because of a retarded comment they made or whatnot, I can't. Its hell sitting there during lunch and all you want to do is hand out stupid smacks and bust out some hater walks.
Another thing...I don't know why, but I hate myself. Well, I wouldn't say hate myself but I don't think I'm up to par with what people are always telling me.
You ever find a crying puppy? It juss breaks your heart to see them in that situation, so you pick them up and decide to take it home or rush it to the vet? But they end up trying to bite you? Despite that, you continue with your duty and ultimately you've saved or changed it for the better? Well, I see my friends sometimes and I feel doing juss that.....but it doesn't always work out....and that's what really kills me.
As much as I hate to say it....you can't always keep everyone happy. I've always known that, but I guess I've juss been too optimistic.
I'm not down, its juss late and I'm thinking more than I usually do. Love to live, live to love.
Docking out...
-Ryan : as filipino as pork adobo
Ryan posted this at 12:56 AM.5/11/03
Sunday, May 11, 2003
Once again, here are the stories, you lazy friends of mine:
Thurs. February 27th - "G*night, G*night"
Sun. March 2nd - "Bedtime"
Sun. March 16th - "Optimist", Mon. March 17th - "Unconditional"
So the BBQ, right? That's what you're reading this for? Haha, lemme break it down.
So I wake up at 11:40...I take a shower. My phone starts bleeping as soon as I get out. 5 people tell me they won't be able to make it. I go online, 3 more people tell me they won't be able to make it. I was juss like....dayum.
So, I fire up the grill at 12:30, but its not working properly. So, I spend a half hour cleaning it and tweaking the lil bugger, haha. At EXACTLY 1 o' clock, Kartik and Quyhny show up! I seriously didn't expect anyone until 1:30, so yeah. They were the first one's there (other than Michael and Phan but that doesn't count since they practically live here).
So, we're all trilling in the backyard, juss having good conversation and then Ryan, Nick and Austin roll over. I'm juss like, "What up?!"
And then out of nowhere, Linda's in my house with Quyhny! Haha, I was juss like, "Linda? Hey, how's life?"
And then they both present me with the GREATEST gift I've ever received...a giant star with birthday wishes AND my name TAGGED on the front of it.
Is that pure or what? Haha.
So yeah, for about an hour we juss chilling, having good conversation with me grilling every few minutes. Jason rolls up too. My mom busts out the apple cider but unbeknownst to me...its not. Its wine, haha.
So yeah, I drank about 1/4 of it before realizing it. Phan took a few sips and was um...'sunburnt' (haha) for the next for hours.
Pat rolls over, then Binh. Ricky, Ben, David roll over from across the street.
Haha, the backyard was split between my usual crew and my invited crew and here I was, chilling on the swing, torn between the two groups.
So, after about 2 hours, Rayan shows up. We all migrate inside to have a lil tournament in Smash Bros., haha. Then immediately, we all trill across the street to get our athletics on, haha. We balled it up for a long time. Played a lil 2 on 2 tournament. Ricky was my partner so without even telling you what happened, you could tell we won, haha. He was the offense and I was the defense. Still, haha, i gotta give it up for Pat and Kartik. Those cats balled it up.
So after a while, Michele rolls up. So, I ran across the street and welcomed her and brought her over. We played some horse but ultimately traveled back to my house.
Binh was busting out on the piano, people playing chess and everyone else playing/watching GTA3.
That's when we busted out the karaoke....Uh oh, uh oh! Haha, we sang for sooo long. The girls made me sing and they said I was good and blah blah blah. Yeah, if you say so.
And then Jason and Kartik were busting it out. Ricky was juss being....Ricky, haha, making everyone laugh. We were going to freestyle...I was busting out the beatboxing...but I was the only one who spouted lines! I even called Michael out, but no, I'm juss too good for him, haha.
And by the way ladies....Michele, Quynhy...you still owe us all a song!
I don't know how long that would've went on for but the batteries died, haha (I have a weird karaoke machine thingy...its not even a machine, it's a specialized microphone, but anyways....).
We were juss eating when all of a sudden Phan comes out of nowhere. See, I thought Phan had already left but it turns out that he fell asleep upstairs, haha.
So we juss watched TV (and we all busted out on the pull-up thingy, haha) until the farewells. And then Whisper, Big Sexy, my fat cat FINALLY comes out when everyone leaves! Silly cat! Everyone was looking for you!
Good times, good times.
"Oh dad..."
-Ahem.....I said 'Oh man...' thank you. Haha.
"He's not mad guys, he's um....sunburnt!"
-Haha, truly.
The best news? I could have a BBQ whenever I want as long as I pay for everything myself. So yeah, if I ever juss don't want to pay for it all myself, I can get my friends to chip in and we'll juss have a lil lounged out weekend with my grill, haha.
Good shit! OoOoWeE!
Docking out...
-Ryan : as filipino as the Bom Bom Boys
Ryan posted this at 10:20 AM.5/6/03
Tuesday, May 06, 2003
So here we are, in english, in the middle of one of Ms. Shipp's DIDLS lessons and Corey passes me a little, torn piece of lined paper. It was titled: "<3's and Crushes of the Cheescake Party."
Ok, it wasn't, but it should have been. Labeled on it were the names of my tables inhabitants. The previous members who had possession of the deceased tree skin had a heart drawn by their name along with another name of a person of the opposite sex.
I look down at all the names and smile. Forgive for using this word but it was.....cute.
I look up. Jason, Jordan, Tammy and Corey all give me anxious smiles. I smile, give the idea some thought, and frown.
I write down 2 names.
I pass it.
I take it back.
I draw a crack in my heart.
I pass it on to Eddie.
And no, I'm not addicted to Dr. Pepper.
I saw a girl in a car this morning as I was crossing into the school.
The first thing that popped into my head...
"I've never seen an angel without wings before."
Phan and Michael can't freestyle....but it makes for a great deal of comedy.
Calling me out, Michael?! Nah, I'll pass. I'll save my rhymes for someone that's worth the wit, bro.
Haha, you know I'm juss playing.
A month of school left...
Random thought of the day:
Sometimes the beauty of the world is so overwhelming, I just want to throw back my head and gargle. Just gargle and gargle, and I don't care who hears me, because I am beautiful.
Fantasy is what people want. Reality is what people need.
All things are real unless you think they're not.
Sometimes, with an increase in knowledge comes a decrease in joy.
I was never optimistic until I actually took the time to smell the roses.
Why is it that people ask me, "Why, when you go on your way, instead of walking you.....stroll?"
Why not stroll? That's like asking me, "why smile?"
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I hide beneath the clouds & whisper to the evening stars...
They tell me affection is just a dream away...
So let the moon shine softly on the girl I long to see...
And maybe when she dreams, she'll dream of me...
When will I be the one somebody's dreaming of...?
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Docking out...
-Ryan : as filipino as "The Hunks"
Ryan posted this at 7:32 PM.
