Wednesday, August 27, 2003

 

8/27/03

Yeah, its official: she's my nyquil.

Tell me something good.

By the way, my birthday's coming up in about 8 months or so.

My friends, I've lost my touch. You can no longer call me Smooth Operator or the Charming Dancer.

But its all good.

Lies save trouble now but come back as thunder later.

Of all the things I've lost, I miss my mind the most.

Maybe I juss need someone to save me from the parts of myself that keep making me crazy.

Why can't I be somewhere in the middle? I'm either hella quiet or hella loud (quiet like a cat, but loud like a dog).

You know why Mr. Sterling is an awesome guy? Because he too says, "Its all good."

Feeling down? If all else fails, juss look up at the sky.....its the same one I'm looking at.

Yes, I realize Mars is closest to our lovely planet today than it has been in some 60K years. Its kind of hard to forget when you have an astronomer for a brother.
I'd love to have seen it. Really, I would. However, its beyond too bright where I live. Still, being the optimist I am, I attempted to view the night-sky for that orange-ish, red-ish speck. Now why did I expect to see it when I can't even see most of the stars on a good night?

Holy dayum have I been beyond tired lately. Though, you might not be able to tell it with my antics in my various classes.

So, here we were in AP Studio art and we're supposed to be doing landscape sketches in pen and I am. At first.
Its when I start detailing and adding in stuff that the real trouble began. I started to draw out the image of a girl sitting on one of the various benches. Slightly slouched over, with her head on her right arm. She seemed to be deep in thought. As if she had everything except that what she wanted. She was all too familiar. I knew her.

Granted, there was no girl on the bench. She had been on my mind the whole day. She wasn't juss in that sketch, she was in all my doodles. She was even in my mathematical equations. Every little thing I thought of I could somehow trace it to her.
Oops on me.

It's a good weird.



Which Guilty Gear X character are you?

I have no idea. I can relate to the text, though.

DON'T GET ELMINATED!

"Once the game is over, the king and the pawn go back in the same box."

Docking out...
-Ryan : one weird kid

Ryan posted this at 10:44 PM.

Saturday, August 23, 2003

 

8/23/03

How's life, ladies? This is Ryan. And I'm a Taurus. And I...most definitely....know...what a...girl wants. Yeeeah... [sport boy-band pout face now]

We the type of people who like to blah, blah.

Cream soda and funnel-cake binging?! You craaazy kids!

I hate it when people say, "You're a guy and you listen to that?!" or "But you're asian! What are you doing listening to rock?" Hey, if I dig it, I dig it. What does it matter to you? You're probably one of those cats back in middle school who was against A-track members mingling with the C-trackers. Or you're one of the dillusionals who sport a color and brawl out whenever they see another particular color. Please, refrain from making such retarded comments to me you frickin' nazi.

Its kind of fair but kind of not that I know almost everyone in all my classes. I don't get to experiance that, "Oh! You're a person I've never met before!" feeling.

I don't know if you heard this, but there's this hilarious, albeit crazy, rumor floating around. Supposedley, I'm running this extortion ring. I'm supposed to have these circuits of upper-classmen around the whole school who punk the lower-classmen for money. Its like....organized bullying. And I only act friendly and nice as a front because no one would ever suspect that "good ol' Ryan" would ever do something like that.

...or would I?

Why do most people cuss? Lalochezia.

I only act stupid in classes to dissuade these ridiculous accusations that I'm smart or something. That and I get beyond bored in class because they're teaching stuff we already know.

Well, now that we've had a week of school I know what classes I can lounge out in, what classes I might have to actually work in and what teachers I'm going to like.
Favorite classes are going to have to be....Physics with Lang, APUSH with Sterling, AP Studio Art with Lewis and AP Eng. 11th with McNalley.
Why is it that I'm always loving my english and science classes?

Sterling, oh man...how awesome is that class? We seem to have a couple of actresses in our class too. You know what I'm talking about...the witch victims, haha. I'm here taking notes when she starts blurting stiffizzle out of nowhere. I'm thinking, "She has tourettes. Her parents are looking into it." But then Kristina gets up and starts spouting about a yellow bird? Then I got it. And then I went back to doodling. Er....taking notes. Yeah, you know me.

I'm thinking I'm talking way too much in McNalley's and hell, I might be. But hey, when you know 75% of the class, and you're sitting next to an old friend who you haven't seen in 2 years as well as being surrounded by other good friends and beautiful people, you tend to be a little on the conversive side. McNalley doesn't seem to mind, though. In fact, she seems to enjoy some of my sharp comments.

Sometimes, I think I try too hard to make people smile.

First it was subprofiles. Then it was OTJ's, mostly Xanga. Then it was Friendster. What is it now? Those dayum Blunt Truth surveys.

Being at a party or a kickback consisting of all couples except for yourself makes you realize more than ever how much you yourself need a significant other. Hell, juss another would do. You wouldn't even need to know the person to make you feel better. They could juss stand next to you at the dipping bowl.

I never get tired watching Extreme Elimination Challenge.

Nice shirt.

Anyone else find it ironic how I like my AP classes more than my regular ones?

"Get out of my class" will be my next favorite quote for at least the next 40 minutes.

Supposedley, I'm a pretty popular soap opera in Alaska right now.

My friends, I ate turf this week. You see, there's these benches by the lunch area and there's grass area and trees in-between them. But there's this particular one that was currently hosting a new tree. Unbeknownst to me, they watered these trees during school. So I'm walking along during the beginning of lunch and I'm not looking down because I'm greeting friends and I happen to step into said bench area. One step and that's when I realize: its muddy and hey! its kind of slippery too! So I'm standing there for about 1.2 secs trying to get my balance, and I do. But when I try to step off, I lose that balance because I'm wearing a stupid backpack full of all my books because I have yet to get my locker. Anyways, I'm falling. And what do I do? (My friends say this was the best part, by the way) I do a spin, so that instead of falling forward on my face, I fall back on my backpack eliminating all chances for frontal mud stains. However, I still have to roll up so I turn again and get up with my hands in the air like I meant to do it saying, "Yes, everyone! I ate it. I ate it hard...and I ate it well." All of this happened within about 5 seconds so no one except those within 15 feet saw what happened, haha. I didn't stain that much so you probably wouldn't have noticed afterwards. "Most graceful, Ryan! I give you a 10"
The worst part? One of the supervisors saw it who has kind of become a good friend of mine since then, haha. But the bad part, right? He calls the custodians to bring down some cones to warn off the area and he's telling them the whole story. So they're pointing at me and laughing, but its all good 'cause I know all of them.
But hey, it wasn't embarassing at all. It felt kind of good to fall. Weird, I know, but nothing bad really happens to me too often. I was proud to point and say, "Hey, you see those cones over there? Those are there because of me, bro. Because of me."

I feel like an inspirational guru. See how much better you feel now that I've blogged for the day?

Haha, blogged. It sounds so much better than 'Xangaed', haha.

"Yeah, they need more padding in the royal sack region."

Docking out...
-Ryan : the boy who blocked his own shot

Ryan posted this at 8:31 PM.

Tuesday, August 19, 2003

 

8/19/03

In need of an osculant relationship. Will pay for din-din.

Allow me to smooth out your day.

Up your ziggy-ziggy with a wah-wah brush!

Don't ever crush on a girl who says she juss has a 'friend'...

Just a li'l warning: DO NOT USE YOUR MONEY TO SEE S.W.A.T.
It is, undeniably, one of the worst movies out there right now. It's a crime against humanity and doesn't do the old show any glory. Despite it, I can vouch one good thing about the movie...there is Dr. Pepper everywhere in that film.

I bought my brain a cane this year and asked it to be my pimp.

Speaking of school, it's surprisingly groovy. The day goes by so fast. I'm loving my schedule like no other. In fact, if I could, I'd marry it.

But you can't marry paper.

It juss wouldn't work out.

All my teachers are beyond nice and/or pure comedy. I know at the very least half the room in every class.

I think I'm set.

But I seem to have a couple of stalkers. They follow me from class to class, even sitting down next to me.

Some, like Kristina, Linh or Quynhy have it bad as they obsessively attend 2, even 3 of my classes!

You girls are crazy!

I'm getting a lot of looks from new administrators and the short, short freshman. Holy dayum, was I really roughly around the same size two years ago?

Lunch is pretty lounged out. I still need to walk around more to see where all the different cliques and friends have decided to stoop out for this year.

I'm juss waiting for the moment when I could break away. The only reason that I'm here is so I can save the day.

Is a zebra white with black stripes or black with white stripes? Hmmsha...

"Maybe if I hit him in the eye, he'll go blind, yeah? Oh wait....he has two..."

Docking out...
-Ryan : sooner or later, you'll get him

Ryan posted this at 7:12 PM.

Thursday, August 14, 2003

 

8/13/03

For the most part, guys are ridiculous, letting their masculinity and their ego get in the way of everything. Some cats juss don't know how to treat a girl...

Do you think I could bring cream soda to school? Or would they tackle me to the ground and suspend me because it looks like alcohol?

Remember back in the day when running in a circle was all you needed for entertainment?

I once asked a girl to help me look for one of my contact lenses. Granted, I don't wear contact lenses. Needless to say, I'm glad I asked her, haha.

...'cause she found it...and gave it to me.

...along with her number, haha.

Girls are pretty.

And amazing.

...you could give them a wedgie from the front and the back.

Yes, my friends, basorexia has returned....again.

If there's any way that I could possibly make your day, feel free to tell me.

My friend will be attempting to take 5 AP courses and one weighted honors class this year. She's going to be under so much pressure that I could probably become a millionaire selling off the diamonds that she'll be shooting out of her ears. Hopefully, we can help her keep the OoOoWeE.

It sure has been flaming warm lately. Hot as a biiiiiish. Juss sitting there I'm sweating more than Mike Tyson in a spelling bee or a prostitute in church. Even checking the mail is hard to do. And not juss because of the heat, but because I'm afraid that the letters'll catch on fire and then we won't be able to pay our bills on time.

I used to defend myself with pepper-spray.

...until I was attacked by a cajun.

Have you ever been stabbed in the eye? It hurts, doesn't it?

How in the world can you hate on the Cookie Monster?!

Describe her kiss? Well, it was a lot like getting bit by the Snuggles bear...

...does it matter much?

I'm not the best...but I'm in the top two.

I guess I am nice. I'm not mean to anyone.....its not nice.

If anything, I'm my own worst enemy.

Everything can be fixed....with a li'l filipino ingenuity!

"Oh! You're the charming dancer!"

Docking out...
-Ryan : if you see this man, call 911 immediately!

Ryan posted this at 2:24 AM.

Saturday, August 09, 2003

 

8/09/03

Whoa there....4 AP classes this year...you think this kid can deal?

You better run before you fall for me.

Sunsets and sunrises. Beautiful. Juss...beautiful. I always say that I'm going to draw/sketch it but even if I have the paper and pencil next to me, I'm so absorbed in its natural beauty to do so.

I have "Now and Forever" by Richard Marx and "Hands to Heaven" by Breathe stuck in my head.

I need to go visit La Jolla Cove sometime.....during sunset, haha.

What is it about rain that I find so soothing? Maybe its the fact that it hardly ever rains in southern Cali that I've never taken it for granted? People say that it looks so gloomy when it rains but for some reason, I don't feel that way. To me, the cloudy sky isn't gloomy its juss...lounged out. And I love walking in the rain. Its not annoying to me at all. The raindrops are like a very subtle, very light massage. I don't know why, but I find comfort in the water.

So...Vegas, right? That's what you wanna hear about? I'll give you the abridged version, haha. Well, despite having to watch my niece and nephews with my cousin most of the time, it was still fun. There was a lot of walking, but that was to be expected. There's no way we're going to be driving around all over the place with crazy drivers and crazy pedestrians, haha. The only downside was walking around during the day. Hot dayum!
So we spent most of the time at Circus, Circus at the Adventure Dome. I was going to hit up the midway and win some stuffed animals to give away, but my nephews dragged me to ride after ride, haha. I met another Rachel, another Trinh and another Dana along the way so I guess it wasn't that bad, haha.
Then it was back to my newphew's room at the Flamingo to gather our trunks and lounge out at the pool. Good stuff. Met another Tammy, haha.
That evening we juss walked around to all the big name hotels and took mad pictures so that we could all brag about staying at the Bellagio and whatnot. It was almost 1, so I trilled back to my room at the Paris and shlep.
Yup, that was about it, haha.

I spent a lot of time today thinking about school. Time is flying by so fast. I'm already an upperclassmen. Its scaring me how quickly its all going. Its all juss been a blur. It seriously hasn't felt that long. I thought about all the classes I've had and all the people I know and known, my last real relationship and all the flings that followed thereafter. No, it wasn't a sad reminiscing, but a joyous one. Even if they were juss flings I couldn't help but feel happy. Its all in those moments in the moonlight when you look at them and their smiles are more radiant than the lunar moon. When you know that even with the little time you two have spent togetheer, you've made a change in her for the better.
I realized how much I take all my friendships for granted. I recently juss realized how many hey's, hi's and what's up's I got on a daily basis when I walked down the hall the past few years.
I find myself excited about the upcoming schoolyear. Strange, I know. But I miss seeing everyone everyday and making people laugh while creating a grip of inside jokes. But what I really miss is that feeling that you get when you meet that new potential someone. You get that glint in your eyes like a kid who's received the biggest present on his birthday and you juss can't wait to open that present and see what treasure lays inside.

So long sweet summer. I stumbled upon you and gratefully basked in your rest. This last week is going to be crunch time as I'll be finishing off summer AP packets and art projects. But hey, its all good. Like I've said many times this summer, this'll be the year of OoOoWeE, believe me. Nonstop smiles and no stress to everyone around me.

See you when you get there.

Docking out...
-Ryan : one guy that you don't want cloned

Ryan posted this at 12:56 AM.

Sunday, August 03, 2003

 

8/2/03

So, today was the big whole wedding. It still hasn't hit me yet that my eldest brother is now a married man or that Rina is now officially my sister-in-law. Strange, it felt like they've been married all along though. They've been together ever since I can remember.
So, here I was, Jr. Groomsman. I thought I had something really, really important to do but it turns out I juss had to stand there and lead the other groomsman, all while looking good, haha. Hey, I don't look half bad in a tux.
I will never forget that single moment when they stood up there on the alter, hand in hand, looking deeply into eachother's eyes, saying their vows. How they're going to commit to eachother for the rest of lives. It was a beautiful thing.
Don't worry, my friends, I still have a scrotum.

The reception was hella down. Free grub, free love...that's all you can ask for. I had fun walking around, mingling, joking around and conversing with everyone beforehand and with relatives, family friends and cousins at their tables.
Ick sang a moving rendition of Now and Forever. The Who Wants To Be A Millionaire game was a nice touch. Haha, I had to burn half those CDs as well as make the covers and CD design labels. Also, the centerpiece game was fun and funny, haha. First we had to keep passing around a dollar, and then whoever had it had to take their napkin and run around the table. No one wanted to run around, so I ran around the table both times, haha. Dean ended up winning the center-piece and my dope lil nephew Jason took off with his dollar, haha.
Bert, the best man and Janine, the maid of honor made heart-felt and funny toasts.
Then there was the money dance. A lot of confusion there, haha. Everybody told me a different thing to do so I was lost for about the first 5 minutes, walking around, handing out pins and then Bert comes and up tells me to juss regulate a line, which I was going to do originally. And then when I'm doing that, Jason keeps asking to help out, so I give him the pins, haha. To top that off, everybody kept coming up to me every 25 secs to tell me to go faster, the only problem was I was already couting 5 and going but everyone kept saying, "No, count to 10!" or even a minute. Don't worry, everyone. I had it down. I knew what I was doing.
Finally, open dance, the moment all my counsins and everyone I talked to was waiting for, haha. However, they were playing a bunch of salsa and old dance music, so only the adults were on the floor. I was juss gliding around taking pictures, haha. Finally, after about a half-hour, they start playing some hip-hop. Haha, that's when all the parents docked-off the dance floor and no one was dancing so Reggie make me go out there and bust out to hopefully break the ice. I did a lil popping and I guess it worked out because everyone started coming down. Success!
We all were grooving and then they started a circle and different people started going in and busting out and then out of nowhere my aunt comes in and she starts busting out! It was the craziest thing I saw that whole night!
They ended the night by playing K-Ci and Jojo's "All My Life" and I was coming back in. I was going to ask Daisy(sp?) if she wanted to dance 'cause she looked left out and lonely but Mia jumped at me and asked me first, haha.
I've never seen my mom so happy. During the Mother/Son dance she was crying happily like no other. Cutest thing, that it was.
After that, it was a lot of goodbyes and a lot of loading 'cause we had to trill all the stiffizzle on over to our house, haha.
And that, my friends, was 8/02/03....the day Elbert and Rina were married.

I'll talk about Vegas later. There's a lot of thinking to do right now.

Docking out...
-Ryan : as Ryan as not letting people in on your lil talents and then busting them out of nowhere because you're suddenly bored and comfortable

Ryan posted this at 2:01 PM.